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I don't... I'm not good at making friends. I don't really know how to talk to people, and I suck at being honest about emotional shit. I mean. I'm better than I was. Buffy understood and we were cool, but I don't

I suck at this.

I just.

I don't really know anyone here, except Xander. And he's got his own stuff he does.

Fuck.

Never mind.