i think that's only to be expected. when something is drilled into your head for years it's not like it's going to just go away overnight.

it wasn't fair of them to dump all those expectations on you, though.

and we're all hard on ourselves up to a certain point. i don't know why we sometimes demand more of ourselves than we would others, but that's why we're here to remind each other we've done good, right? and our best.

which is all we can do.