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[comedownthisroad]

I was a soloist in my church choir from the time I was about seven until I stopped going to church when I was 12.

I still sing in Latin in the shower sometimes.

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[comedownthisroad]

Yeah.

I mean, what the fuck else do I have here?

[thehighestwing.livejournal.com]

Alrighty then.

[comedownthisroad]

You're Xander's friend, right?

[thehighestwing.livejournal.com]

That would be me! I'm Phoebe. We've known each other for... man, almost two years now. :)

[comedownthisroad]

Me too. Well, I mean. In my Chicago. Fuckin city is confusing.

He talked about you a bit when I first got here.

[thehighestwing.livejournal.com]

Tell me about it. I just got sent back from an alternate dimension after being there for a year.

Aw. If they're good things, they're true! And if they're bad... well, they're probably also true. ;)

He's something else, isn't he?

[comedownthisroad]

it was all good. he missed you a lot, i think.




yeah. he... he is.

[thehighestwing.livejournal.com]

I missed him, too.

And any friend of Xander's is a friend of mine. Not saying you want to be my friend or anything, just know the offer's there.

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I don't... I'm not good at making friends. I don't really know how to talk to people, and I suck at being honest about emotional shit. I mean. I'm better than I was. Buffy understood and we were cool, but I don't

I suck at this.

I just.

I don't really know anyone here, except Xander. And he's got his own stuff he does.

Fuck.

Never mind.

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[thehighestwing.livejournal.com]

[DAW, Tay! ;;]

I'm actually not very good at it, either! I can talk to strangers and have plenty acquaintances but friends, real friends? Are something that I can count with only one hand.

And then I went away for so long that when I came back a lot of people were gone.

You should've met my ward, now he was a challenge.

For what it's worth, I don't mind.

If you suck at it.

Or think you suck at it.

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[comedownthisroad]

Doesn't help my ward's back in... well, I guess he's not my ward anymore. I get this... tug. Restless, even if I go monster hunting. I never really had a chance to feel that before, I met El a couple weeks after my wings came in.

Anyway, it just... I don't know what to do anymore.





I miss having friends.

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[thehighestwing.livejournal.com]

It's not the same thing, but I lost my ward, too. The link was just gone when I came back, and it's kind of like, I don't know. Walking around missing a limb.

I miss it, too.

And I miss him, too. Jack.


We can go patrolling together? I was trained by Torchwood for it. Then we can do something fun, if you're up for it.

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[comedownthisroad]

Harkness? I remember him. Gave El a concussion once. And I think he killed my cousin. Good times.

He was a decent guy, though, most of the time. Romana didn't like him much. looking back, that speaks well of him.

don't suppose you could get me a gun, couldya? I have a knife I got off some mugger and a pipe i've been using like a club. it's bullshit.

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Yeah, that'd be him! Ah... did it all happen when he was Thane, by any chance?

He was. He didn't believe himself to be, but he was.

I'm Torchwood.

Course I can get you a gun!

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[comedownthisroad]

the concussion happened when thane... woke up or whatever. killing my cousin was romana's fault, she sent her kids to attack torchwood and torchwood defended themselves.

i still

it wasn't really his fault. georgia knew what she was getting into.


haha, just 'cause you CAN doesn't mean you WILL. :P betcha will though.




thanks. for... iunno. fuck. maybe being a friend.

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[thehighestwing.livejournal.com]

i heard about that. i mean, he told me about most of it once i became his guardian. he wasn't really happy about it, and i don't think i really helped any, but.

i'm still sorry for your cousin.

'course i will! guns are a girl's best friend, not diamonds!


you're welcome. thank you for giving me a chance. :)

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[comedownthisroad]

you're a girl after my own heart. seriously.

you free tonight?

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[thehighestwing.livejournal.com]

you bet i am!

let's do this thang.